but isn't it terrible
when you caught in time 
but time moves on ?

memories is killing me, I want to forget it all but it just stuck in my head. cannot be erased. what should I do? running away? be the busy one? all I want is to kill the memories. I totally hate when suddenly the memories appear in my mind? can you just cross my mind? dont stop and stuck in like forever. because I hate remembering something beautiful and can get it like before. I hate that the memories cannot happen again in my life, for now or for future. 

"oh why do I reach for the stars when I dont have wings to carry me that far?

I gotta have roots before branches, to know who I am before I know who I want to be

and faith to take chances, to live like I see a place in this world for me"

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Room for Two - Roots Before Branches

        Covered by Rachel Berry, Finn Hudson from GLEE

LIE

I am a good liar. best liar ever. pretend every feeling, make fake story just wishes that it'll be happen to me. sometimes I just want to live honestly. no lies. no fake. everything is honest. but I am afraid that the honest is worse than lie. fake story is better than reality. that's why I cant stop lying. 

“I'm telling you a lie in a vicious effort that you will repeat my lie over and over until it becomes true” 

― Lady Gaga