PATH

I don't know what path actually now I am walking on. But I hope the biggest one it will show me the right way and put me at beautiful place I used to be. Now, I am not really passionately about my college session. Perhaps because it's not fit with my dream before. However life goes on. So what

I am just do it like flowing water. No passion, no struggles, no emotion. Just do it so I can face tomorrow like today. Omg I get confused with my own words. Sorry. I am now studying in Faculty of Biology despite of studying in my planned faculty. And I am in the middle way to love Biology and move on from my dream faculty. I know, there's nothing happen without reason. But, you should know how it feels when something not fit with your plan. And it just messed you up. Well, it happens to me. But I am trying so hardly to not to be like this but why not if I just write all the things I can't do in the real life. Ha ha ha.
 

Someone told me "if you said that doctor is an angel, then Biologists is the God" you know it means all the things that doctor study are biology lesson. And we are biologist. Ah, you should understand. Well, with his words, firstly I am so happy that I am in biology now. But as long as the lesson begin, it become so useless. And after this, about one month college period, the more I feel so wrong being placed right here. I am lost, and I have no way out, even just a map.
 

I do really want to try the next year test so, repeat and repeat again till I get what I want. But I know the best my family couldn't handle it, and I have made a promise to my mom that I can face whatever I've got this year. Woaaaah.
 

I am jealous with anyone who can try the test for next year, try to keep reaching their dream despite to just try to accept all the destination. Hahaha.
 

Okay, this only -unworthiness- text I want to end it well. But maybe it gonna continue to the next my writing.