Sometimes, I wonder, why we should have bestfriends or something like that? Like, we just born alone and will die alone. So why the hell we need to have friend, like, the closest one that everyone called as "bestfriends"? So why the hell we need to live this life with someone like that? If we born and die alone, I'm so sure af that we also can live this life alone. 

 
So, after I realizing this thing, I've been living this life as a super extrovert person. I just told everything that happened in my life to everyone and never think that what I told is a secret or important things and don't care who the person I told to. I don't care what will they going to do with my story, will they just mocking at me, or laughing, or looking down at me. I am just deal with that.
 
I just have lots friends, to hang out with, to walk beside me, to joke around, to tell my story. 
 
Then, suddenly I know that there will always someone who thought me as their best friend, even I don't. 
 
Somehow, they know that I am not okay even I don't tell them. And they just sit beside me and doing nothing but somehow it works for me. I am feeling better, somehow, even they doing nothing. 
 
Like, they presence just makes me better. 
 
Is it bestfriends? 
 
So for you who thought that this is you, I love you. I'd like to thank to you, because you always there for me whether I do or don't need you. Because you can make my day be my "day". Because of your presence, I am being better. 

Regrads, Shofi

Random Thoughts

Hello, it's been a while I dont write anything in this world. theres so much happen to me in a year, like, really much. when I watch what I was in one year ago I am wondering. How can a year makes me so different, literally, different.

One year ago, I was jobless. I just wrote some crazy wishes, and one of them is "I will have job and get money all by myself". my friend told me that writing your wishes and put it on your wall and hoping someday every wishes will be come true is bullshit. But, hello, now I am working at "Fathimah Safety Ojek" and have one regular customer so that means that I will have my own money that I get it by myself for every month. You have no idea how proud myself.

One year ago, I was a super ordinary girl who has no excitement at organization, like, an apathetic. I dont care about anything that happened to my faculty, I just dont care anything. But somehow, at December 2015 I signed up at Legislative Organization in my faculty. and somehow, I was trusted to be the leader of the organization. mind blowing isnt it?

One year ago, I have nothing to be proud of but now I have a little achievement, my group has pass to have participation on  PKM (Research Week), for this case my group has signed up for PKM-PE (Research). I have never do any research before, that means I can learn something new this year. 

For everything that happen to my life, for 2016, I know theres nothing like accidentally happen to this life, I know everything happen for a reason whether it is good or bad. But I know it, for sure. All I can do now is just absorb everything good and left the bad behind. I just want to be a better person and one thing thet I must to do is get out from my comfort zone, I have to break down these wall that I've been built to secure me from everything I dont like. I have to take big, bigger steps to grow, to be a better me. 

I just need to learn everything.

to face everything

to be brave

because life is wasted if I just live in my wall.

so

I can, I will

watch me.