Random Thoughts

Hello, it's been a while I dont write anything in this world. theres so much happen to me in a year, like, really much. when I watch what I was in one year ago I am wondering. How can a year makes me so different, literally, different.

One year ago, I was jobless. I just wrote some crazy wishes, and one of them is "I will have job and get money all by myself". my friend told me that writing your wishes and put it on your wall and hoping someday every wishes will be come true is bullshit. But, hello, now I am working at "Fathimah Safety Ojek" and have one regular customer so that means that I will have my own money that I get it by myself for every month. You have no idea how proud myself.

One year ago, I was a super ordinary girl who has no excitement at organization, like, an apathetic. I dont care about anything that happened to my faculty, I just dont care anything. But somehow, at December 2015 I signed up at Legislative Organization in my faculty. and somehow, I was trusted to be the leader of the organization. mind blowing isnt it?

One year ago, I have nothing to be proud of but now I have a little achievement, my group has pass to have participation on  PKM (Research Week), for this case my group has signed up for PKM-PE (Research). I have never do any research before, that means I can learn something new this year. 

For everything that happen to my life, for 2016, I know theres nothing like accidentally happen to this life, I know everything happen for a reason whether it is good or bad. But I know it, for sure. All I can do now is just absorb everything good and left the bad behind. I just want to be a better person and one thing thet I must to do is get out from my comfort zone, I have to break down these wall that I've been built to secure me from everything I dont like. I have to take big, bigger steps to grow, to be a better me. 

I just need to learn everything.

to face everything

to be brave

because life is wasted if I just live in my wall.

so

I can, I will

watch me.